Lagi mau ber-ga jelas-ria nih. Hehehe. Setelah beberapa hari dilanda kebosanan, ada juga yang berhasil bikin gue agak bersemangat dikit. Sosok itu ga pernah lepas dari pandangan gue sejak gue nyadar kalo dia adalah 'seorang yang bisa menjadi hitungan'.
Oh God, gue untuk yang ke-sekian kali jatuh cinta lagi sama dia. =_="
zzzzzzz
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Friday, February 20, 2009
FAKE?
Lately I don't feel like enjoying my life anymore. No spirit, no power, no destination.
I miss my old life.
Ke mana perginya kehidupan gue yang dulu? Yang bener-bener murni penuh dengan kebahagiaan, yang tidak ambil pusing dengan masalah, yang santai-santai aja, yang selalu masih bisa tersenyum walaupun sesuatu yang tidak bagus terjadi kepada gue?
Gue tegaskan gue SANGAT SANGAT tidak nyaman dengan kehidupan gue yang sekarang.
No excact reason and nothing's happened, tapi dengan anehnya gue ngerasa kehidupan gue sekarang sangat penuh dengan kepura-puraan, kepalsuan, or whatever you call this!
Mungkin di balik keanehan yang terjadi pada diri dan kehidupan gue ini, gue masih bisa menyisakan raut muka kebahagiaan. Dan hal ini gue rasa gue terpaksa melakukannya semata-mata cuman untuk menutupi ketidaknyamanan gue. Gue bener-bener ngerasa senyum gue ga setulus dulu.
Gue mulai nyari-nyari alasan kenapa hidup gue kaya gini? Karena bosan? Hidup hampa?
Gue ga ngerti, gue aneh, gue pengen hidup gue yang dulu.
GOD, please give that happy life back to me. I beg you :'(
I miss my old life.
Ke mana perginya kehidupan gue yang dulu? Yang bener-bener murni penuh dengan kebahagiaan, yang tidak ambil pusing dengan masalah, yang santai-santai aja, yang selalu masih bisa tersenyum walaupun sesuatu yang tidak bagus terjadi kepada gue?
Gue tegaskan gue SANGAT SANGAT tidak nyaman dengan kehidupan gue yang sekarang.
No excact reason and nothing's happened, tapi dengan anehnya gue ngerasa kehidupan gue sekarang sangat penuh dengan kepura-puraan, kepalsuan, or whatever you call this!
Mungkin di balik keanehan yang terjadi pada diri dan kehidupan gue ini, gue masih bisa menyisakan raut muka kebahagiaan. Dan hal ini gue rasa gue terpaksa melakukannya semata-mata cuman untuk menutupi ketidaknyamanan gue. Gue bener-bener ngerasa senyum gue ga setulus dulu.
Gue mulai nyari-nyari alasan kenapa hidup gue kaya gini? Karena bosan? Hidup hampa?
Gue ga ngerti, gue aneh, gue pengen hidup gue yang dulu.
GOD, please give that happy life back to me. I beg you :'(
Monday, February 16, 2009
Campus-Campur
Sumpah gue bener-bener lagi ga ada ide buat nulis akhir-akhir ini. Mending kalo lagi ada yang gue pikirin. Lah ini, pikiran gue kosong banget. Ga ada semangat idup, males ngapa-ngapain, yaa gitu lah. Tapi daripada gue ga nulis apa-apa, yaa gue cerita apa yang gue laluin dan alamin selama ga nge blog. Hehehe. Mumpung belum basi-basi amat.
Yang pertama gue ucapin Selamat, Tahniah, Congrats, Omedetou Gozaimasu, etc lah buat room mate gue tercinta si Yugi yang sekarang udah jadian sama Bang Nanda. Langgeng aja deh yaa.
Yang kedua, dengan ucapan yang sama gue tujukan kepada room mate gue yang laen, Uut, yang udah jadian sama Giry.
Oke, tinggalah gue jadi the only single in this room. * sigh
Trus setelah nunggu sebulan gue ngecat rambut gue yang bagian dalem doang, akhirnya gue cat lagi rambut gue dengan bantuan Samar, si cantik dari Yemen. Warnanya exotic red. Awal-awalnya ga keliatan warnanya eh lama-lama keliatan juga. Lumayan deh. :P
Dan di minggu ini juga gue dikagetkan dengan dua quiz mendadak dan satu mid sem. Pertama quiz Bahasa Jerman I. Gampang-gampang susah juga. Gue jawab rada ngasal. Ich bin neunzehn jahre alt. Ich studiere Deuscth. Yah gitudeh gue ngasal, ga tau bener pa kaga :P
Quiz dadakan yang kedua adalah quiz statistik. Untuk yang ini untungnya open book dan soalnya gampang, cuman perlu ketelitian. Mid sem nya adalah Etika Pengamal Media. Gue ga belajar dan alhamdulillah si Cik Zuraidah, dosen gue agak bisa ditipu dikit. Hahahaha sukses gue nyalin jawaban orang! Dengan modal nota gue taro di handphone juga sii.
Yang terakhir pas orang-orang pada sibuk ngerayain Valentine (emang masih jaman ya?), gue sama temen-temen sekelas fotografi gue sibuk tur dan hunting foto di Sungai Sedim, masih daerah Kedah tapi dah deket-deket ma Perak. Berangkat jam 6 dari kampus sampe di sana jam 11. Busettt. Trus kami mulai hunting deh. Sumpah serem gila di situ, jalannya manjat-manjat, mana serem lagi. Gue paling ga suka manjat-manjat gituu.
Gue lagi ga ada sense of taking picture jadinya gue pinjemin aja kamera SLR gue ke Ossa. Gue palingan malah asik ngambil gambarberdua ma Khing, temen gue dari Thailand.
Selama nih perjalanan gue kerjaannya mau ketawa mulu ntah kenapa. Mungkin gara-gara capek gue nyari cara biar capek gue itu ga kerasa. Di sinilah kegilaan gue mulai terdeteksi sama temen-temen Melayu gue sampe akhirnya mereka pun ikut-ikutan gila. Ada temen gue, Ismail, dia nanya di Indonesia arti 'kocok-kocok' apaan? Gue bilang dalam bahasa Melayu 'kocok-kocok' itua artinya kacau. Eh si Ismail sama Zalimi, temen seperjuangannya malah ga percaya, katanya ada arti lain entah apa gitu. Dasar otak mesum, udah tau nanya. Trus pas gue ngomong 'burung' pikiran mereka juga udah ke mana-mana. Hahahahaha. Tapi kocak. Jadi ketawa-ketawa mulu.
Nah pas balik, ternyata jarak dari tempat hunting foto sampe ke tempat bis parkir tuh jauh banget dan gue ga tau itu. Pas Bang Rino ma Aul ngajakin gue buat naek mobil, gue, Ossa, Kak Dian, Kak Indri, ma Khing bilang mereka duluan aja, karena kirain parkir bis nya deket. Ternyata ... JAUH GILA. Ada kalii 5 kiloan gue jalan. Di jalan kegilaan gue kambuh lagi. Sampe si Khing yang dulunya ngirain gue cakep, imut-imut, pendiem, feminim, dll yang bukan gue banget, berubah kesan, cuman satu kata : gila. Huahahahaha. Setelah jalan 5 kiloan itu, gue ketemu warung, jajan bentar. Trus si Khing ngeliat ada mobil pick-up dateng dan dengan ga tau malu gue ma Khing minta nebeng ma tuh mobil. * bukan kita sih yang minta nebeng, tapi Encik Fotografer, ga tau namanya sapa, bukan dosen gue yang jelas *
Akhirnya nyampe deh kita ke bis. Sumpah yang kami laluin itu baru setengah perjalanan! Parah!
Pulang dari situ gue langsung tepar. Huhuhu.
Dan besoknya, kelas fotografi emang cancel. Ga efek sebenernya karena gue toh tetep harus bangun pagi karena ada kelas Jerman jam setengah 10. Dan untuk sekedar info ya sodara sodari, saya jarang kelas ini karena terlalu subuh!
Dan pas gue dah semangat kelas, kelasnya cancel juga. Sial. Walhasil gue nganggur 4 setengah jam, secara kelas gue selanjutnya jam 2. X(
Dah sekian aja post gue. Tambah ngelantur, mana mata dah 5 watt. Caoo!
Yang pertama gue ucapin Selamat, Tahniah, Congrats, Omedetou Gozaimasu, etc lah buat room mate gue tercinta si Yugi yang sekarang udah jadian sama Bang Nanda. Langgeng aja deh yaa.
Yang kedua, dengan ucapan yang sama gue tujukan kepada room mate gue yang laen, Uut, yang udah jadian sama Giry.
Oke, tinggalah gue jadi the only single in this room. * sigh
Trus setelah nunggu sebulan gue ngecat rambut gue yang bagian dalem doang, akhirnya gue cat lagi rambut gue dengan bantuan Samar, si cantik dari Yemen. Warnanya exotic red. Awal-awalnya ga keliatan warnanya eh lama-lama keliatan juga. Lumayan deh. :P
Dan di minggu ini juga gue dikagetkan dengan dua quiz mendadak dan satu mid sem. Pertama quiz Bahasa Jerman I. Gampang-gampang susah juga. Gue jawab rada ngasal. Ich bin neunzehn jahre alt. Ich studiere Deuscth. Yah gitudeh gue ngasal, ga tau bener pa kaga :P
Quiz dadakan yang kedua adalah quiz statistik. Untuk yang ini untungnya open book dan soalnya gampang, cuman perlu ketelitian. Mid sem nya adalah Etika Pengamal Media. Gue ga belajar dan alhamdulillah si Cik Zuraidah, dosen gue agak bisa ditipu dikit. Hahahaha sukses gue nyalin jawaban orang! Dengan modal nota gue taro di handphone juga sii.
Yang terakhir pas orang-orang pada sibuk ngerayain Valentine (emang masih jaman ya?), gue sama temen-temen sekelas fotografi gue sibuk tur dan hunting foto di Sungai Sedim, masih daerah Kedah tapi dah deket-deket ma Perak. Berangkat jam 6 dari kampus sampe di sana jam 11. Busettt. Trus kami mulai hunting deh. Sumpah serem gila di situ, jalannya manjat-manjat, mana serem lagi. Gue paling ga suka manjat-manjat gituu.
Gue lagi ga ada sense of taking picture jadinya gue pinjemin aja kamera SLR gue ke Ossa. Gue palingan malah asik ngambil gambarberdua ma Khing, temen gue dari Thailand.
Selama nih perjalanan gue kerjaannya mau ketawa mulu ntah kenapa. Mungkin gara-gara capek gue nyari cara biar capek gue itu ga kerasa. Di sinilah kegilaan gue mulai terdeteksi sama temen-temen Melayu gue sampe akhirnya mereka pun ikut-ikutan gila. Ada temen gue, Ismail, dia nanya di Indonesia arti 'kocok-kocok' apaan? Gue bilang dalam bahasa Melayu 'kocok-kocok' itua artinya kacau. Eh si Ismail sama Zalimi, temen seperjuangannya malah ga percaya, katanya ada arti lain entah apa gitu. Dasar otak mesum, udah tau nanya. Trus pas gue ngomong 'burung' pikiran mereka juga udah ke mana-mana. Hahahahaha. Tapi kocak. Jadi ketawa-ketawa mulu.
Nah pas balik, ternyata jarak dari tempat hunting foto sampe ke tempat bis parkir tuh jauh banget dan gue ga tau itu. Pas Bang Rino ma Aul ngajakin gue buat naek mobil, gue, Ossa, Kak Dian, Kak Indri, ma Khing bilang mereka duluan aja, karena kirain parkir bis nya deket. Ternyata ... JAUH GILA. Ada kalii 5 kiloan gue jalan. Di jalan kegilaan gue kambuh lagi. Sampe si Khing yang dulunya ngirain gue cakep, imut-imut, pendiem, feminim, dll yang bukan gue banget, berubah kesan, cuman satu kata : gila. Huahahahaha. Setelah jalan 5 kiloan itu, gue ketemu warung, jajan bentar. Trus si Khing ngeliat ada mobil pick-up dateng dan dengan ga tau malu gue ma Khing minta nebeng ma tuh mobil. * bukan kita sih yang minta nebeng, tapi Encik Fotografer, ga tau namanya sapa, bukan dosen gue yang jelas *
Akhirnya nyampe deh kita ke bis. Sumpah yang kami laluin itu baru setengah perjalanan! Parah!
Pulang dari situ gue langsung tepar. Huhuhu.
Dan besoknya, kelas fotografi emang cancel. Ga efek sebenernya karena gue toh tetep harus bangun pagi karena ada kelas Jerman jam setengah 10. Dan untuk sekedar info ya sodara sodari, saya jarang kelas ini karena terlalu subuh!
Dan pas gue dah semangat kelas, kelasnya cancel juga. Sial. Walhasil gue nganggur 4 setengah jam, secara kelas gue selanjutnya jam 2. X(
Dah sekian aja post gue. Tambah ngelantur, mana mata dah 5 watt. Caoo!
Friday, February 6, 2009
25 Random Facts about Me ;)
1. My given name is Kanya Nadra Andhina, but in cyber world I use Nadra Asjoedjir as my name. Nadra is my nickname and Asjoedjir is my family name. I am 19 years old, my body is slender, and I am not tall. Not mature yet :(
2. I have so many nicknames. Nadra from my close friends, Uni from my family (I am pure Minangkabau and I am the oldest daughter in my family), Rabbit from my mom (because I am naughty like rabbit(?), Cina Nyasar (because my face looks like Chinese), Kanya from people who just know me, Nut from my best friend (because nut is read as nad and my face got so many pimples then they made an analogy that nut = pimple), and Once from my ex-room mate, Sarah (because I am Oon a.k.a stupid).
3. I like doing online. I can stand sitting in front of a laptop/computer as long as there is internet connection in that laptop/computer. Actually, I consider it as bad habit. A day without internet means nightmare for me. Hahaha.. I don't pay attention to anything around me when I am doing online. I become bad mood if someone disturbs me when I am doing online. :P
4. I really love MANCHESTER UNITED. I don't have reason for this and I was thinking that maybe God created me to this world to fall in love with this club. And I have a dream (and I hope it will be coming true), someday I will go to Theater of Dream, Old Trafford, a cozy home of Manchester United. Glory glory Manchester United, United for life!
5. I am very clumsy. Although in a rush time, I still can't make my movement faster * sigh *
6. I am stubborn, intractable, or whatever you call this. I can keep my thought and opinion as well, but sometimes I can be influenced by other people. Or in the other word, I am wishy washy.
7. My favorite number is 7. Also don't have any reason why I love this number. My handphone numbers ended by 7, my matric number also ended by 7 :P
8. I love English. I am quite good in grammar, half good in speaking, BUT I am not good in listening and really poor in vocabulary. I have to read dictionary routinely -_-"
9. I tried smoking just once in my life. And I don't know why I didn't find any addiction like most people did.
10. I've been in love so many times but I am easily got bored (maybe I've not found 'that guy' yet).
11. I like paying attention to a guys wearing Polo Shirt with t-shirt inside it. I think that's cool.
12. My favorite foot wearing are flat shoes and sneakers. It used to be high heels but I don't know why now high heels is one of foot wearing that I avoid :P
13. Although I hate Chelsea FC, I ever fell in love with John Terry! Hahahahahaha .. Strange? Yeah. Objectively he is a sexy man with good sex appeal. And the reason why now I don't like him anymore is that he became the loser because of his failure to do crucial penalty kick (that actually almost brought Chelsea became the Champion of Europe for the first time) in final match of UEFA Champions League vs Manchester United (hahahahahaha, glory MU).
14. I really really hate the music called dangdut. Well don't think that I don't love my country's music but really, my ears can't accept dangdut. :(
15. I don't like vegetables. I find hard to eat it. I try to love it but when I eat it, I feel like wanting to throw out.
16. Before planning to study abroad to Malaysia, I wanted to study at ITB, in Sekolah Bisnis Manajemen and I successfully got that course after doing USM test. But unfortunately, my dad didn't agree. Then, because my dad wanted me to study in Malaysia, university that I really wanted to become my place to study is Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia. And once again my dad didn't agree. And destiny brought me to Universiti Utara Malaysia. Ever planned to move to UKM but I changed my mind. Now I can adapt with this campus life although the location is in the jungle. Haha ..
17. I am an extremely heavy sleeper.
18. I have a thing for oriental-looking guys. I like seeing Japanese, Chinese guys. But sometimes, I also like Indonesian or Malaysian guys :P
19. I wanna go to China once again but not in winter. I wanna feel China in spring. Oh yeah, Japan also ;)
20. I think Japanese is easier than German.
21. I love beach, and I wanna travel all the beach in the world. Yeahs!
22. Love to wear a big size shirt. It's cool and sexy I think haha.
23. I am really open-minded, but I can close my mind in certain time.
24. I love both Indonesia and Malaysia, whatever happens.
25. I like to listen to oldies band like The Beatles, Beegees, Queen Scorpions, and Guns n Roses
* sorry, already sleepy last night, maybe there are some grammar errors :P
2. I have so many nicknames. Nadra from my close friends, Uni from my family (I am pure Minangkabau and I am the oldest daughter in my family), Rabbit from my mom (because I am naughty like rabbit(?), Cina Nyasar (because my face looks like Chinese), Kanya from people who just know me, Nut from my best friend (because nut is read as nad and my face got so many pimples then they made an analogy that nut = pimple), and Once from my ex-room mate, Sarah (because I am Oon a.k.a stupid).
3. I like doing online. I can stand sitting in front of a laptop/computer as long as there is internet connection in that laptop/computer. Actually, I consider it as bad habit. A day without internet means nightmare for me. Hahaha.. I don't pay attention to anything around me when I am doing online. I become bad mood if someone disturbs me when I am doing online. :P
4. I really love MANCHESTER UNITED. I don't have reason for this and I was thinking that maybe God created me to this world to fall in love with this club. And I have a dream (and I hope it will be coming true), someday I will go to Theater of Dream, Old Trafford, a cozy home of Manchester United. Glory glory Manchester United, United for life!
5. I am very clumsy. Although in a rush time, I still can't make my movement faster * sigh *
6. I am stubborn, intractable, or whatever you call this. I can keep my thought and opinion as well, but sometimes I can be influenced by other people. Or in the other word, I am wishy washy.
7. My favorite number is 7. Also don't have any reason why I love this number. My handphone numbers ended by 7, my matric number also ended by 7 :P
8. I love English. I am quite good in grammar, half good in speaking, BUT I am not good in listening and really poor in vocabulary. I have to read dictionary routinely -_-"
9. I tried smoking just once in my life. And I don't know why I didn't find any addiction like most people did.
10. I've been in love so many times but I am easily got bored (maybe I've not found 'that guy' yet).
11. I like paying attention to a guys wearing Polo Shirt with t-shirt inside it. I think that's cool.
12. My favorite foot wearing are flat shoes and sneakers. It used to be high heels but I don't know why now high heels is one of foot wearing that I avoid :P
13. Although I hate Chelsea FC, I ever fell in love with John Terry! Hahahahahaha .. Strange? Yeah. Objectively he is a sexy man with good sex appeal. And the reason why now I don't like him anymore is that he became the loser because of his failure to do crucial penalty kick (that actually almost brought Chelsea became the Champion of Europe for the first time) in final match of UEFA Champions League vs Manchester United (hahahahahaha, glory MU).
14. I really really hate the music called dangdut. Well don't think that I don't love my country's music but really, my ears can't accept dangdut. :(
15. I don't like vegetables. I find hard to eat it. I try to love it but when I eat it, I feel like wanting to throw out.
16. Before planning to study abroad to Malaysia, I wanted to study at ITB, in Sekolah Bisnis Manajemen and I successfully got that course after doing USM test. But unfortunately, my dad didn't agree. Then, because my dad wanted me to study in Malaysia, university that I really wanted to become my place to study is Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia. And once again my dad didn't agree. And destiny brought me to Universiti Utara Malaysia. Ever planned to move to UKM but I changed my mind. Now I can adapt with this campus life although the location is in the jungle. Haha ..
17. I am an extremely heavy sleeper.
18. I have a thing for oriental-looking guys. I like seeing Japanese, Chinese guys. But sometimes, I also like Indonesian or Malaysian guys :P
19. I wanna go to China once again but not in winter. I wanna feel China in spring. Oh yeah, Japan also ;)
20. I think Japanese is easier than German.
21. I love beach, and I wanna travel all the beach in the world. Yeahs!
22. Love to wear a big size shirt. It's cool and sexy I think haha.
23. I am really open-minded, but I can close my mind in certain time.
24. I love both Indonesia and Malaysia, whatever happens.
25. I like to listen to oldies band like The Beatles, Beegees, Queen Scorpions, and Guns n Roses
* sorry, already sleepy last night, maybe there are some grammar errors :P
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
HARI SIAL : UPDATED, baru inget ada satu kesialan lagi!
Sekedar nge-junk dikit nih abisnya pikiran lagi nge blank bingung mau nulis apa di blog tapi tangan gatel mau buat postingan baru. Well jadi gini, tanggal tiga Februari dua ribu sembilan termasuk sebagai hari yang sial bagi gw. Hahahaha ga penting kan?
* Kesialan pertama : TIDAK DATANG KELAS SDG (SELF DEVELOPMENT GROUP)
Okay, bagi yang ga tau apa itu SDG, gw kasih bayangan dikit. SDG itu hmmmmm semacam kelompok yang kalo di Indonesia namanya ... (( mikir )), dosen wali kali ya? Bener ga sih? Yah pokoknya di SDG ini, ada dosen pembimbingnya, trus kerjaan kita selama tuh kelas ngobrol2 nyantai doang, pake Bahasa Inggris, kadang2 ada sesi curhatnya juga, dll. Dari sem 2 kemaren, dosen SDG gw yang sebenernya, Puan Zac, cabut ke UK jadi SDG gw jadi ga jelas gitu. Pas sem 3 juga, gw ga pernah dateng ehh trus pas ketemu gw nanya2 ma dia soal SDG dia bilang SDG sem ini ga ada, dan kita semua satu kelompok dapet nilai MEMUASKAN. Nah sem ini, setelah ga jelas beberapa minggu, kemaren temen gw sms, katanya besok (alias hari ini) jam 10 pagi ada SDG, dan gw langsung nyebarin ke temen2 SDG gw yang lain. Ehh gara2 gw curhat sama rumet gw, Uut, sampe jam 4 an, gw kebangun jam 11. Yah mana sempet lah. Untuk ngurusin siap2 dan tetek bengeknya, gw perlu waktu minimal satu jam! Yah ga dateng gw SDG. Huhuhu.
* Kesialan kedua : sudut bibir gw sariawan
Sumpah ga tau kenapa bibir gw muncul sariawan yang sungguh tidak mengenakkan. Ga bisa ketawa ngakak, ga bisa teriak, mau nyuap makan susah. Tadi gw makan spaghetti sama chicken chop (combo hehehe) Perwaja favorit gw, rasanya emang enak banget, tapi enaknya jadi kurang gara gara sakit buka mulut. Sariawan sialan!
* Kesialan ketiga : screen protector kamera gw PECAH!
Tadi gw bawa kamera SLR gw buat foto-foto bulletin anak Indonesia di kampus gw, Bejana. Nah pas gw bawa tuh kamera dari kamar, tuh kamera screen protector nya masih baek2 aja. Trus pas nyampe ke tempat ketemuan sama anggota yang laen, gw cabut bentar ke kafe buat beli minum. Gw titip ke Bang Adit, senior gw. Kondisi terakhir : masih aman. Trus pas nyampe ke Sport Center, gw buka kamera gw, ehh petaka terjadi. Ga tau kenapa tuh screen protector dah pecah :(
Untung bukan screennya yang pecah. Huh.
* Kesialan keempat : abis foto-foto Bejana, ke Perwaja, lupa kalo dompet gw titipin ke Ossa dan Ossanya dah balik
Dasar emang dah pikun. Segalanya lupa. Akhirnya minjem duit Devlita, junior gw. Duh ga enak banget. Mana makan gw combo lagi :P
Dah sekian aja kesialan gw. Ga penting? Emang.
Bye.
* GA JELAS LO NAD
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